"I couldn't wait for success . . . so I went ahead without it."
Ah, this statement hits home. If you spend your life waiting for success, it may never come. Keep doing what you need to do. If that is to paint, then paint. If that is to write, then write. If that is to sing and dance, then sing and dance. The key is not to wait on success because when it comes you may not recognize. It may be disguised in the love of a soul mate or in the gift of friends.